Monday, January 01, 2007

A New Year, A New Start

It's been a little over a year since the last post. It turned 2007 about 17 hours ago and right now, I'm sitting in the Brigade S-3 (Training and Ops) on Staff Duty while typing this up. After a short tour in Monterey, we were returned to Augusta, Georgia, from whence we came, and re-settled into a familiar, if somewhat unwanted, area. There have been a number of small struggles, all of which we are overcoming with every passing day. Our son has finally taken to walking, and does so with much confidence and delight, although he hasn't quite figured out how shoes factor into the equation just yet. He's also started to talk with more coherent syllables and has his favorite games to play with both Mom and Dad.

I had a lot I wanted to type here, but ... I forgot. I know some things for the New Year that I want include a renewed interest in my job, at least to the point where I can find the motivation again to take up a promotion. There's also some problems on my old home front that I should probably clear up sooner rather than later, although how escapes me, given how the circumstances played out over the last few months. Maybe a little weight loss and fitness won't do much harm, either.

Over the last year and a quarter from the last post, there have certainly been a number of trials, but inbetween have been an excellent series of adventures, both personal and with friends we've made along the way, both local and not so local. We're doing much better now than ever before, and it's still going up from where I'm looking.

So, a Happy, Healthy, and Prosperous New Year to everyone. .

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Concentrated Madness

Decided to once again try this Blogger thing. Too reluctant to step off the semi-protected enclosure of a security blanket known years to me as Xanga. Hopefully, this blog will become something more than just my own as I add Sean and Stewart to the list of authors.

Crossing Borders is about life, about food and all that runs in the Cross family household.

I am Malaysian Chinese, born in 1981. I met my husband in an online game called Prophecy: The Mud, where he played a pivotal role in the game as an Administrator (Lelldorin) and I was the local game flirt-whore. Ha ha ... At the time I was in HELP Institute taking up Psychology as my major and decided to finish it off in the USA. We weren't quite dating at the time, but he knew my intentions well, since I also had a few other guys who were interested in me, it was a tough decision to make. Anyway, I flew 22 hours by plane hopping from Singapore to Japan and finally Bemidji, MN where I attended Bemidji State University for a year.

On October 31st, I dolled up in my Playboyesque bunny outfit and awaited the long anticipated meeting of souls. I was even before then while undertaking the task of seducing said Lelldorin convinced that he was and ever will be my one and only soul mate. How I knew this from not even meeting in person, I will never come to understand, but only that I felt it with every inch of my existance. You know those overblown romance stories you read about where the lovers kiss and supposedly hear bells and tingle all over? That was the feeling that night when we met. I will guiltily admit here that I almost forgot about Kirsty. It was just him and me in the whole entire world, that night.

The next year, I was to spend Summer with him in Georgia where he was stationed. I also went through one of the most pivotal experiences that changed our lives forever. I was pregnant. Deciding still then to pursue my degree to the end, and yet not wanting to bring up this child illegitimately, we went to the courts to get our engagement legalized. Arriving half an hour late at the Minister's house because Sean got us lost, we became less Lim and more Cross on August 5th, 2003. In the Winter months of that same year, I lost the baby to miscarriage after 3 months and spent a week in Beltrami County Mental Facility under suicide watch and post-partum depression. That was a very difficult time because I also had to leave school to recuperate as the miscarriage happened very close to exam time and I had missed too much. I also could not pass Statistics after two semesters of it, but that's another story! LOL

The new year came and I went back to Georgia to live permanently with Sean. We adopted a "son" over the summer. A little orange furball called Peanut, who sadly is no longer with us as I gave him up to the SPCA as I reasoned with myself that my father hates cats, who will be coming to visit this year. We also picked up a Licorice (aka Likki) and JiJi, all given away again. I will admit that the stench of the kitty litterbox will not be sorely missed! And they are not clean animals at all, despite what most books say about the fastidiousness of felines.

Another year after that, here we are in Monterey, California. This is where my life as a girl truly ends, and I become a mother. :)